Friday, April 10, 2009

Chemo Cancer Catch up

Had a cat scan last friday. My doc called me same day, which is unusual. had blood tests too. CA125 back up. 147 down to 114 and now up to 127. normal is 35 or less. cat scan showed increased fluid in ab area, where before. not good sign. supposed to go to galapagoes islands may 7th, so she decided to get aggressive and beat it down before i go. so monday was a long day of my BIG NASTY chemo back in the arsenol. i was there from 9am - 645pm. slow drip cuz i'm allergic to it. i'm struggling this week big time. tryiing to get over this chemo fog. it's sooo bad. been in bed sleeping since tuesday. can't pull oout. any stimulation at all is excruiating. no sound. no tv. no reading. no music. no talking. no fb. no texting. i just want to curl up and die. sometimes that seems easier. so overwhelmed with easter and class trips and class birthdays and class plays and i have no idea how i'm going to get anythinig done for mytrip or anyone's stuff. i can't function or focus. i'm hoping i turn the corner in the next day or two. i just can't handle any more. sorry to whine. just be patient with me. oh, another lady from my support group died yesterday, sara. :( cancer sucks.

9 comments:

KR said...

Shauna -
I am trying to think if there is anything tangible I can do for you from 150 miles away. Think. Let me know. Really.

You will get to the Galapogos. Let them pull you there. You will get through and it will be worth it.

Let me know if you need a traveling companion. Really!

Love,

Kathy

JO said...

Shauna:

I have been worried about you since you haven't been on Facebook. Glad to see your blog post. Sorry you are not feeling well. Just take care of YOURSELF. Don't worry about anyone else but YOU! Please let me know if I can help you in any way. I am sure you will be better by Wed., but if you aren't and you want a ride to group, would be happy to pick you up. Take care of yourself.

Love you, JO

Heidi said...

Thinking good thoughts for you Shauna.... I wish there was something I can do for you.... call me (253-569-8667) if you need to talk to just to cry... Im praying you feel better soon.. xoxo Heidi

Paris said...

I'm so sorry hon. I really am. I got your back for Easter... I'll make it happen. I will do my best to spoil the kiddos and bring dinner. It was good to hear your voice today... I have been so worried. Love ya to pieces, p

Laura Nicholas said...

oh Shauna - I am so sorry. Sounds like heck of a week. You will get to the Galapogos... You are tough and that is such an adventure. Take care of yourself and get stronger. All else will take care of itself... miss you! hope we can do a play date soon when you are up to it.
Laura

Dave Scriven said...

I so appreciate your transparency, Shauna. I cannot imagine how hard it must be. You are loved.

Dave and Adonica

Nightscrapper said...

Shauna, you are in my prayers daily. Keep strong...you are a survivor! We will keep rooting you on.

Thinking of you!
xoxo, Marlo

Anonymous said...

Shauna - I've been thinking about you lots over the past two weeks. You are in my prayers daily and I want your body to respond so that you can go on your trip. Take it day-by-day and whine to your hearts content. xo - Molly

Anonymous said...

Shauna:

We think of you often and hope things are going great. Kids won't let me have a face books so I cannot see how you are. Miss your postings here. Hope everything is going ok.

Goldammers