Friday, August 28, 2009

The Life Boat



The Life Boat
by Shauna Berglund Immel

Life is like a Cruise Ship.
Like the Carnival Line.
Exciting and fun.
Sailing over the waters with ease.
Without a care in the world.

Dolphins jump in the wake.
Like a marching band
leading a float in a parade.

Waves break against the bough (bow?)
Turning water into mist
like confetti falling.
Dancing in the salty air
like fairies in flight.

I stand at the helm,
taking in the beauty of the beyond
and pondering the endless possibilities
as far as the eye can see
Like the ocean.
The places I can go.
The things I can see.

I breathe in the scent of the sea
slowly
Savoring the salty aroma

The salt air tickles my face
as we sail head on into the wind.
Full speed ahead.

But the ocean
and Mother Nature,
like life,
are unpredictable.

Clouds move in like shadows
as the solitude of the still blue sky
turns to chaos.

The wind,
once a soft, warm breeze,
picks up speed
and the wet sprinkles on your face,
which once felt like soft kisses
now sting like a swarm of bees.

The seas swell
and the ocean waves,
once like a steady, mesmerizing heartbeat
Slap the side of the ship with force
Tossing it around
like a toy ship at odds
with a raging, swirl of sea.
So small and fragile.

No match for the strenght of the sea,
The ship takes on water
Like the weight of the world.
Beginning to go under.
Sinking deeper into the abyss.

Until all that is left
is but a tiny rowboat
adrift in the storm.


I read this tonight at the Write Around Portland Anthology Release Party They needed more footage of me for a documentary they are working on. It's always nice to participate in those readings. It's a great organization that does so much for the community

Wasn't feeling well today. Very nauseous and feels like increased fluid in my abdominal area. A lot of pressure in my rib area, like when I had it before and they took me away in the ambulance. I know better than to do that again! Also got some bad news. My daughter's teacher was diagnosed with breast cancer. Which means she will be gone for part of the year to deal with all that entails. It just seems like we can't get away from this. My son's middle school home room teacher/advisor was diagnosed with cancer in 7th grade, both of her gymnastics coaches were diagnosed and one ended up passing away. We miss Irina. Kaelin's reaction was "Everyone has cancer." and then she listed all of the people, including me. What is going on? Why is it following us wherever we go. Bringing up bad memories and feelings. We just can't seem to catch a break and get a breather from it. It is very prominent in our life. Where before I was diagnosed, Irina was the only one we knew. I feel like I bring bad karma wherever i go. Is it me???? It breaks my heart that these people now have to deal with this disease too. When will someone find a cure?? We need one. And soon. Sigh.

My mom bought a new Mac Book Pro laptop, so I am back in the blogging business, photos and all! I have so much catching up to do! I will leave you with a photo of the day from my Galapagos Trip, which was heaven on earth. Enjoy! xoxoxo Shauna

photo of me at the Equator in Quito, Ecuador

7 comments:

Paris said...

Thank you so much for sharing your writing. I'm glad you were able to make it for the reading tonight... you had me worried today. I'm so very sorry about K's teacher... and for all that have to battle this stupid cancer. It sucks beyond belief. It is not bad karma from you AT ALL. So many people are telling you because of the strength and courage you give them. You have so much to give to so many of us. Love you, my friend. xoxo

Angie said...

You are so talented, strong, amazing, a force to be reckoned with....never forget it!! Loved the poem, I'm glad you made it to the reading.

Anonymous said...

Oh Shauna, you are such an amazing writer, you truly are. Thanks for sharing your writing with all of us.

I'm sorry to hear about K's teacher, I truly am. I know the feeling of being surrounded by cancer. It totally doesn't make sense but then it does for I fear we have killed our earth with the pesticides, chemicals etc, all those "safe" items according to our govt. It scares me to think what will happen to the bodies that have been injected with botox and other items. I try so hard to keep "chemicals" away from the kids diets but yet, life is so uncertain anyway.

I'm happy to share the soup recipe if there are any parents who want to try their hand with it for K's teacher.

I love you dear friend!

Jaci

Anonymous said...

That was a wonderful poem that you wrote. Thank you for sharing. I think cancer has replaced heart disease. Everyone I know has been touched by cancer, be it a family member or friend or loved one. You are in my thoughts and prayers daily. I don't know if you know this, but my father died of pancreatic cancer and my maternal grandmother had mouth cancer. I know it is difficult to fight this terrible disease, but there are so many people who love you.

Mary Anne

Shay said...

I am so happy you are back to blogging. I just checked in and was able to get caught up today. I am so impressed and inspired by you - the uncensored words and emotions are SO powerful. You have such a gift and I am so grateful you share it so willingly. I am praying for you and your family...

Much love,
shay

Anonymous said...

Shauna,
I saw mention of your award in the WAP e-mail newsletter and just had to check out your blog! We were in a WAP session together and I just loved your writing then, and now too. I think of you often and am fighting for you in my thoughts!

Nancy

astumblingchristian said...

Hey! I stopped at your site to put a link and read The Life Boat while I was there. And you know what I discovered? You're a poet!

No...no... not a poet as in "someone who writes poetry." I mean a POET. As in, one of those people who has the soul of a poet and the sort of lyricism and grace with words that can make our quirky language sing. Wow. Very, very nice poem.

Just so you know, the next time you say I have a "nice way with words" I'm going to laugh at you. Words love you! Hoping to read more of your stuff soon.